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Ausserrohden, Bühler
school Bühler
home, St Gallen
Teufen, Ausserrohden
Goliathgasse, St Gallen
Waaghaus, St Gallen
restaurant, Lugano
hospital Civico, Lugano
Alhambra, Lugano Pedrino
hospital Herisau, Appenzell, Ausserrohden
prison Hindelbank
Waaghaus, St Gallen
restaurant St Gallen.
park, St Gallen
Langstrasse, Zürich
home, In Brunnadern, Neckerthal
Salvation Army
central station St Gallen
psychiatric hospital, Wil, St Gallen
prison Hindelbank
meadow Schützenmatt
brook bank Olten
Gleissspietz forest path
timber bridge Olten
under the timber bridge Olten
church Olten
distribution office Schützenmatt
Braunes Haus, residence and drug company
industrial zone
Stadtpark Aarau
location drugbus
shoppingcenter Aarau, under the bridge
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I am the unwanted child of my loveless mother
At age five, I suffer from my father’s violence, violence imposed
by my mother
At age six, the school confirms my hyperactivity
At age seven, I suffer from loneliness and start drinking my
parents’ alcohol
At age eight, my brother is sent to reform school
At age thirteen, I find comfort with friends and smoke hashish
and marihuana with them, and take LSD
At age fifteen, a friend gives me my first shot of morphine
At age fifteen, my parents put my out in the street
At age sixteen, I shoot heroin and morphine[audiohel_m_09.mp3]
At age seventeen, I start school at the wish of my parents,
and am expelled because of my drug addiction
At age nineteen, I also use cocaine, tranquilizers, and medicine
At age twenty-one, my mentally retarded son is born
At age twenty-two, I am detained and lose, through my parents’ intervention,
the custody of my child
At age twenty-two, I am in love with a woman, use fewer drugs,
and escape from prison
At age twenty-four, I fall back into polytoxicomaniacal drug abuse
and deal hashish to finance my addiction
At age twenty-seven I use no drugs apart from methadone to get
two wish-children
At age thirty-two, I relapse into drug abuse with my boyfriend
and have my children placed in a foster home
At age thirty-eight, I live in fatal dependence of a man and of drugs
At age forty, I am homeless, and live in shelters or on the streets
At age forty-two, my boyfriend forces me into prostitution,
and I stab him
At age forty-three, I break down and am committed
to a psychiatric hospital
At age forty-for, I am taken into custody
At age forty-five, I fear dreams that announce my death
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I am the devoted child of my theomaniacal mother
At age eight, I am sexually abused by my father
At age nine, my father attempts to rape me
At age ten, I deliberately injure myself to blackmail my father
At age fifteen, I am raped by a stranger, busted by the police,
and accused by my mother
At age fifteen, I anaesthetize myself with medicine
At age sixteen, I run away from home, live together with a man
and get pregnant
At age seventeen, I am forced to marry the father of my child in order
not to be expelled from my mother’s church
At age eighteen, my husband begins to abuse me
At age eighteen, I shoot heroine, work while addicted,
and look after my beloved childhood
At age twenty, I leave my husband, live with my parents,
and work professionally as a dealer
At age twenty-four, I manage a restaurant with my HIV-positive lover
and take care of him until his death
At age thirty-one, I love a drug-addicted woman and live happily
At age thirty-seven, I contact my father in order to forgive him
At age thirty-eight, I fear life, alone
At age thirty-nine, I am being observed by the police,
and am charged for openly dealing in heroine
At age forty, I am arrested and sentenced to
four years imprisonment
At age forty, I submit to legally imposed treatment
and confess my addiction to my son
At age forty-two, I am clean, depressed,
and cannot endure life in sobriety
At age forty-two, I fall in love with a former drug addict, experience
unprecedented understanding,
and no longer defend myself through verbal violence
At age forty-three, I break of treatment, and fall back into
polytoxicomaniacal drug abuse
At age forty-six, I am treated a full year for advanced liver cirrhosis
At age forty-seven, I live in prison
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